It's my Birthday and I'll cry if I want to....

Today is my Birthday but I am not crying in the least bit. Now if Monday had been my Birthday then crying would have been exactly what I did. I was pretty sure that my throat and ears were being cut off by some cruel individual they hurt so bad. Let's start at the beginning. I woke up Saturday morning and my chest hurt. Like the kind of hurt that when you breath in cold air it feels like you swallowed needles. Well I took some medicine and went on about my day. By the time Sunday rolled around I knew there was no way I could go to Church. Boy, am I glad that I didn't. I would have infected the whole Church. I stayed in all day and pretty much just laid around and slept. Monday morning I woke up and felt even worse. So much so that I said I am going to the Dr. So I called and got an appointment at 2:30 in Gentry but I was hurting so bad that I was ready to be seen right then. So I asked Ronda to come and get me and see if I could go to the walk in clinic in Wal-Mart in Siloam. So she drives me to Siloam and guess what? The stinking place has moved and no one has a clue as to where. So we end up back at the house and she takes the kids with her to do her grocery shopping and I zonk out in bed. I am exhausted after the trip to Siloam and somewhat loopy from the pain. Very Strange feeling. Anyways at 2 my Mom comes back here and gets me and we head to my 2:30 appointment only to sit there for an hour waiting on the Dr. UGH! Slowest clinic in the world. Mom checked on why it was taking so long after 30 minutes and then I sprawled out on the couch(seriously) and then after another 30 minutes I staggered up to see what the hold up was. I finally got into see the Dr about 10 minutes later. So they weighed me and blah blah blah and took my temperature and said oh my your temperature is 101.2. I said ok. I mean really I have been here a blooming hour when I left the house AN HOUR ago it was only 100.5. So the nurse rushes around and looks for me some Tylenol. The clinic has NONE. Yes, I said NONE! I promise you after that they had me lickety split out of there! I was done in 10 minutes time. HA! They wouldn't shake my hands either....I don't get it. I kid I kid. I didn't try to shake hands with them. So after 2+ hours I finally get home, fed and off to bed I went. So in that long ramble the point is that even though I am NOT 100% better I am better than I was on Monday. I really had no plans of celebrating my birthday today anyways. Rowdy is quite concerned as to why adults don't have birthday parties like kids do. I believe for that reason alone he is in no hurry to be an adult. :) Well I gotta go. Sorry for my ramblings and if it makes no since. I cant type and make since at the same time so I don't try.


Never mind maybe I will just cry. UGH!!!!!

Role model

Being a role model. This weighs heavy on my heart a lot. What kind of person am I teaching my children to be? I feel like I am doing a pretty good job of showing them how to be. I had a wonderful upbringing but there are things that I would have changed. Mostly going to Church regularly. I now see that finding a good church is hard to come by(not saying that was the issue) thus the reason we drive to our Church even living far away. I really try to watch what I do and say so that I am setting a good example. I strive daily to give Rowdy a firm foundation of God by studying the bible with him, giving him memory verses each week to both write and memorize, and by going to Church not because we have to but because we yearn to learn more about God. I really do think that Church attendance is so very important to raising a child. If we don't attend regularly then why should they go EVER? There is so much they can learn at Church about God and it makes it easy to come home and practice those teachings. I also strive very hard to give Rowdy the best education that I can. I did not have that great of an education and I really want him to have better. Oh, I had good teachers along the way but they didn't follow me all the way through school and help me along. I made good grades for the most part but when it came time to college I was VERY unprepared. So much so that I only went to the Community College for 1 year and was in tears for the most part through most all of that. I was in remedial course for everything. It was very disheartening to a mostly "A" student.I don't want that for Rowdy. I am really learning along the way and we are only at the beginning. I will be able to take college courses after I get done homeschooling and probably pass with no issues. I could careless about going to college at this point in my life. I have found my calling and I am truly content with it. I think my kids see my love for God, Kris and them among other family and friends. I am truly blessed but I know with God's help all these things can be improved and I am ready and willing for any changes in my spiritual life.

Prayers

Is God still listening? How many times have I wondered that exact thing. I tell you that I couldn't count the times. I often get this silly feeling that He isn't and I have to remind myself that nothing is my timing it is ALL His timing. My devotions this morning was on just that. What perfect timing. I have signed up for the daily devotions on the Charles Stanley site and it seems that they hit home with exactly my feelings each day or at least remind me of God's will. This morning devotions laid heavy on my heart for my friend. I ended up forwarding her the devotion. I am sure that she has heard these things before but it hit home with me and reminded me that God perceives the WHOLE picture and we see the moment that we are in and the past situations. So our "valleys" that we maybe in now are really just God getting our blessing lined up for us. My heart aches for the family and the unknown that they are facing now. Even though prayers are not answered in our time it is such a peace to know that God is still right beside us the whole way and that we must walk in obedience to Him. 

Psalm 25:20-21

²⁰ O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.
²¹ Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee.


I hope that this blesses you like it did me.

First thing that I am going to say is that I am so thankful for a pastor that preaches on finances. You know if we sat down and put pen to paper with our finances it wouldn't work out but we do always come through and all of our needs are met. I know that as long as our needs are met then our wants will come in God's timing not ours.I also love when I go to Church and am reminded that we are in God's will. I know that we are but that reminder is so helpful. I have a few people really on my heart to pray for and boy have I been praying my heart out. On Monday the need for prayer was feverish almost. I felt restricted like I didn't need to do much of anything else but pray. Isn't it wonderful how God works?
We went to our Valentine's day party with our Home-school group and we had a really good time. I cut out 44 mustaches and attached them to suckers and I think it was a great hit. We came home and I made heart shaped biscuits and Rowdy requested I make the sausage patties heart shaped too. So I did those then made gravy. My guys LOVE biscuits and gravy. I am not so big on it but they really like them. Then we played a short game of Monopoly. I know there really isn't such a thing as a short game of Monopoly. It was a start the game and in 30 minutes we are done. HA! That game is tiring.
Well that is all for now folks. Have a blessed weekend.

Warning

I am fixing to blog about my day with Paisley Sage. I will tell you that if you have a weird belly then you might not want to read any further.

Today Paisley pooped her pants and before I could get her changed she had a "ball of poop" in her hands. Thankfully I don't think that it made it to her mouth but I did not smell her breath to make sure. Rowdy and I later had a conversation about this and he thought it was weird that the poop had grown legs and walked out of her diaper but he followed by saying "There is a first time for everything". He said this whole growing legs thing because when he cant find something or something is where it shouldn't be then I always say "Well it cant grow legs and walk off". This was one of those Oh crud how many times have I said that to him and now he is throwing it back at me. So then she got a hold of two sharpies(still not sure where they came from) and she colored on her belly. She never colors on the walls only herself. I have yet to figure out my feelings on that part. Sharpie is hard to get off skin. Paint is easy to use on walls lol.  So a few hours after poop play she bit a hunk out of a stick of butter.(I thought I should say it was a few hours(which it was) after the poop thing since she may have eaten some and well then bit into the butter lol) This is not the first butter tasting she has had. I am pretty sure she likes butter. After the butter she found a dead fly on the floor and she picked it up to inspect it and well as she put the fly on her tongue the fly flew away startling her. She exclaimed OH. This sounds like I didn't try to stop her from eating the fly and well I didn't. She had it from floor to mouth in seconds. Our house is full of flies and I would be lying if I said that I was glad the fly flew away. HAHAHAHA! 

Needless to say my kids keep me hopping always and I am forever thankful for that. 

Walking...calorie counting

Well I started on Saturday logging my calories on My Fitness Pal to see how many calories per day I was eating and how far off mark I was. Well so far I went over one day (Sunday). Today I started walking. Oh boy. I forgot how much better I feel after walking. I have a huge amount of energy after I walk. It is so nice. I must keep this up. I did try something that I haven't did since Elementary school. Rowdy decided that I should draw a hop scotch on the back porch and then show him how to do it. PHEW! I did good but my poor ankles screamed after walking a mile then jumping. HA! I will not be doing that ever again. Well I will probably forget but hopefully it wont be any time soon that I forget.

So my "resolutions" for the year. Well I am happy to report that I am doing very well on the only one I remember which is Bible Study. I am learning to work around the kids and do it when I can and I love it! I can just feel the closeness to God. I did get a wee off track during the sickness that we had going around the family but I got right back on track. I'd have to look back and see what the other resolutions are so I am assuming that I totally dropped them. :) The most important one was bible study daily and not missing it here and there.

Well tonight is Family Fun night and the pizza is going so I better get off and get the stuff ready so we can let the fun begin.

Blessings Y'all,
Kari