Dad

I woke in the night crying last night. Not sure what the dream was about really just that Dad was in it. That always starts my day off teary. He is then on my mind the whole day more than usual. Typical days I think about him and wonder what he would have done or said or what silly saying he had to go with what event is going on in our life. I most of all wish that he could have met Paisley. He loved Rowdy so much and I just know that he would have loved her too. He really got a kick out of Rowdy and his shenanigans and would have really loved some of the things that Rowdy has said or done since Dad passed. Sometimes it is so hard not to have him here. I know that it is hard for me and so I cant imagine what my Mom faces daily. I know just last night she said that she missed something in particular so much and she said well I cant really pin point one thing I miss it all. Makes me sad for her. She is doing so well when most people would have thought about giving up she is pushing on and making the best of things cause she knows one day she will be with him again.  In the 6 short years that Rowdy knew Dad he sure learned a lot or maybe it runs in the family but I'm leaning towards the first. He says something on occasion and I think I wonder when he heard Dad say that? It will sounds just like what Dad would say. Odd how you know that Heaven is there and you know its better than this place we are at and we long to be in Heaven so that all pain is erased and we will forever praise our Father. But when someone so near you gets there first your anticipation increases and you really long to be there to just so you can be together again. Someday we will all be together again to fall on our knees and worship or Lord and Savior.

Sorry this is run on and jumbly. Hard to type while crying.